Word Vomit.
no.1 12th january 2026
So that, keep a journal every day, New Years resolution is going really well. Still I suppose it is better late than never.
So lets do a little update right now...
I am afraid to write it down on paper for fear that things will start to go wrong if I actually admit it. But I am living in the present and I need to admit so I can revel. But I feel as if things are going well. I will repeat that to be clear, I feel like things are going well.
For such a long time I honestly did not think a day would come where I could even imagine that let alone feel it! And now, at least for the last couple of weeks I have felt good, even when I had to leave early from college because I knew I had hit my limit. At least I had got there, I mean this time last year I was still a shadow of former self. No I am not a shadow and I am nothing like my former self. I am changed and for the better, and those who do not feel that way about me, who are not able to be happy for me in this moment I chose not to be around. I have picked a core few, it is not that I dislike people that have distanced themselves, because I appreciate the frustration of me being so unreliable for so long would have caused, and I am sure that there patience (for the ones that gave it.) Wore thing some time ago. I think fondly of the memories I have. My opinions on some of my once closed of people has changed, and that is okay too. Like I said I am things are going well. I am happy. Yes I am, that is right! I am happy.
I have prospects in my career, I have a lovely home, I have my pets which are my world, I have my Mum, a couple of amazing girls as friends and I have a man. That is an actual man, that has changed himself for the better, that is a good and decent person he makes me proud to be his woman. He makes me feel confident enough to be a Queen, that is strong not just by his side, but with the independence and wisdom and humor to have her own life. I am just really really happy! I am the exact person that I want to be.
I am just going to sit back for a moment with a cup of tea and think about that for a moment.
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